Weary

I haven't wrote for over a month. I'm feeling very uninspired. My lack of computer knowledge & the absence of someone to show me is making me feel rather helpless/hopeless! Things around here have been rather stressful about a month ago my dear Mum had a fall she has been in a terrible amount of pain. We took her to hospital & it appears she has 2 fractures in her back, L2 & L5. She has been on pain medication & was making progress I was certain she would come home Monday. On Sunday she became unwell, in hospital & has gone done hill very fast. It appears she has a chest infection & a scan has shown a tumor in her lung, she will be 92 in 3 days. The Drs are trying to put a cannula in but her veins are all collapsing. I'm reeling. I think I do expect her to live forever. Mum has taken care of me since I was 10 months old. My drop kick parents were to busy doing whatever neglectful parents do. When mum took me I was malnourished & fragile. She adopted me when I was 6, she has never deserted me & always been there. My biological father I never met & my biological mother hates me, go figure it's apparently my fault SHE stuffed up. Anyway I'm just not not not ready to lose mum. I'm praying she pulls through. I'm selfish I know, she is ready to go BUT I'm NOT. Mum hold on please. Gab xxx