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Hello Friends
Oh gosh i can't believe its been so long since i blogged.
not much has been happening in these parts.
My Sweet Girls are growing up SO fast, we visit no 2 son regularly now & that is good for him & us. We find the visits very hard its not a great place BUT i have to be Grateful for the chance to rebuild our relationship, i might not LIKE what my Darlings do BUT my love is unconditional. 
Id like to say he is doing well but it seems this boy of mine seems to keep following the wrong path.

On a brighter note the girls have had lots going on Ez graduated & of course i cried as i always do:) we are very proud of her.
Ez had her yr12 formal & looked stunning of course & in the same week Boo attended her boyfriends yr12 formal Boo looked so grown up iw anted to scream SLOW the hell down girls whats the rush. it seems they have grownup so quickly.

I'm feeling rather lost since mum died.
i don't miss her as the last year had been very hard for her & i, she was 92 it was her time. it was a very hard time with mums extended family & I'm so FREAKING glad its over done capiche.
Im now contemplating what ill do.
I HAVE to go back to full time employment & after being at home for the last 29yrs raising children I'm just a little ready. of course the problem is at my age my options are limited.
Apparently people tell me i have so much to offer, but go figure I'm still jobless.
i still volunteer in animal rescue & there are a lot of other volunteer things id LOOOOVE to pursue BUT apparently we need to eat.
I'll keep Praying & Trusting.

Boo & her boy

Ez & the boy

a large part of my heart is in this pic!

Ez her boy & a precious friend!

Gorgeous

Graduation lunch a girl & her Dada

My Darlings

YES they did it!

i love this pic!

Sorry for all the pics but I'm just a little proud of this lot:)
Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

Weary

I haven't wrote for over a month. I'm feeling very uninspired. My lack of computer knowledge & the absence of someone to show me is making me feel rather helpless/hopeless! Things around here have been rather stressful about a month ago my dear Mum had a fall she has been in a terrible amount of pain. We took her to hospital & it appears she has 2 fractures in her back, L2 & L5. She has been on pain medication & was making progress I was certain she would come home Monday. On Sunday she became unwell, in hospital & has gone done hill very fast. It appears she has a chest infection & a scan has shown a tumor in her lung, she will be 92 in 3 days. The Drs are trying to put a cannula in but her veins are all collapsing. I'm reeling. I think I do expect her to live forever. Mum has taken care of me since I was 10 months old. My drop kick parents were to busy doing whatever neglectful parents do. When mum took me I was malnourished & fragile. She adopted me when I was 6, she has never deserted me & always been there. My biological father I never met & my biological mother hates me, go figure it's apparently my fault SHE stuffed up. Anyway I'm just not not not ready to lose mum. I'm praying she pulls through. I'm selfish I know, she is ready to go BUT I'm NOT. Mum hold on please. Gab xxx

Happy Days

Life has been peaceful lately.
I have lots to be thankful for!
It was Mothers Day on Sunday & i REALLY had a lovely day.
My sweet girls were amazingly generous to me & i felt very spoilt.
it was a relaxing day & i thoroughly enjoyed it.
Hubby had a seminar & went off to that about lunch time & i sat in my comfy warm bed watching catch up abctv on my NEW iPad, my sorta day:)
On Saturday my eldest son came to visit with my grand daughter, Baby Girl.
Oh gosh she is a cutie & i was a rather happy Grandma. Every time she says 
'lub woo' my heart just melts.


My girls are studying hard Boo has exams this week & Ez is inundated with assessments. they are both working very hard.
Mum has a chest infection that we are keeping a close eye on & praying she doesn't need a hospital stay.


Im wishing i could get a job i could do from home.
There are lots of hours(some days) where mum is resting & I've nothing to do.
If only my computer skills were better. oh well thats life.


heres some pics of life at house place recently!

Have a wonderful day!
Gabs xxx

Melancholy

Today is my boys birthday.

'T' is my third child & today he is 22.

He was born on a friday 11:39pm to be exact. he nearly died in delivery & it was a horrific labour.

I was a divorced mum with two children & found myself pregnant.

It was a roller coaster of a pregnancy & tough going BUT at the end i was Blessed with this exquisite baby boy we all loved him so very much.

'T' was always on the go & i loved his energy & joy for life, lots of people found him hard work but we always looked for the positives. 

I married my awesome hubby when 'T' was 2 & he adored his dad.

When he was about 14 things started to change & nothing we did helped.

Then My Kate died & his downward spiral accelerated, Im not making excuses for his bad behaviour everyone has a choice.

In the end we as his parents had to take a stand, the girls were suffering & we tried every possible avenue to help him but NO-ONE cared, he didn't fall into they're criteria, arseholes!!!!!!!!

We haven't seen our precious boy for 3 years.

I know he is alive & relatively well BUT it breaks my heart that he is where he is.

I hope that somehow he has a good birthday.

I love you my sweet darling boy & i miss the person you were.

Happy Birthday.

Have a wonderful day

Gabs xxx

A new direction

Well it looks like my photo a day blogging has come to an end.
Im really sad about this.
My girls are in senior high school with a big workload.
They DID agree to letting me take their photo every day BUT the novelty wore off EVER so quickly.
Ive had 8 weeks of nearly constant vertigo & have struggled to keep up, oh & my camera died:( & there is NO chance of me replacing it.
I think i will take a new direction in blogging.
I mean after all I'm a intelligent woman who has lots to say(just ask my hubby)
I think when I'm able to afford it ill have to get someone to help me with fixing this blog up, I'm rather computer illiterate.
no idea about links & things!!!!!!
To the few that follow PLEASE stick around things are going to be quite different:)
Im sure you will enjoy whats in store.
Have a wonderful day!
Gabs

Mach 27

Lots has been happening here, I've been pain free since saturday & that in itself is really exciting I'm very Thankful.
My mum has had another small stroke but home & doing well.

Jelly decided to see if there was anything exciting on the table!!!!


Then i found a visitor in my room.
I decided to take some photos with the macro lens i bought for my iPhone, i was impressed with the pics i must say i was shaking:) 
When hubby came home he relocated Mr Spider to the tree out the front.

Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 26

Well exam weeks under way.
Ez is super busy studying.
She had two exams today.
I just keep telling her it will all be fine. regardless how well she does we are proud of her.
Its a hard time, Ez has high expectations of herself.
Im praying she will be kind to herself.

 Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 25

Today we had a special visitor:)
A dear friend brought her precious new baby to visit.
She is just adorable & we had a lovely visit.

Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 24

Today was very exciting i was pain/ vertigo free:)))))
I took it easy & just sat around reading the paper.
Both girls are out.
Ez is at The Boys house studying, she has half yearly exams these next two weeks.
It was a lovely day to sit in the sun.

Buddy decided to help me read the paper, YES he was a HUGE help!
Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx 

March 23

Its ever so quiet when the girls aren't here.
Just hubby & i home.
Im not not not looking forward to the day the both move out.

Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 22

Grover & Jelly have become the best of friends.
They love to play chasings, Jelly does the chasing & Groves does the teasing:)
Every time Jelly has a rest Groves loves to curl up next to her.

They are very cute.
Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 21

Im still in bed & feeling very down! 
Its been weeks that I've either had a migraine or vertigo. the Dr has some ideas & I'm taking some new meds. 
Im praying for some relief.
At last some photos of Boo:)
I rather like them.
I know she had fun taking them.
Gorgeous Girl.

 Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 20

While the studying is still going on its very tense here.
Im back in bed today with vertigo, yesterday i had a migraine.
I had a scan yesterday so hoping it shows SOMETHING!!!!!!!
The Boy took these photos of Ez

Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 19

We haven't been doing any foster work(animals) lately.
I find it very hard to say goodbye & we do have a few animals of our own.
Today we were asked to take a very sick cat for a few days.
I must say i don't instantly like cats i much prefer dogs, upon saying that you might remember that i have 3 cats.
Well this sick cat that is living in my bathroom/quarrantine is just THE most sweetest cat I've ever met.
He is such a gentle loving boy & will make a wonderful pet for someone once he has recovered.
i have to keep telling myself "we have enough animals":)))

Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 18

These sweetest girls have been studying most of today.
Have i mentioned how proud of the hard work they put into they're school work.
My beautiful girls.

Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 17

Ive spent today in bed & yesterday.
My vertigo is not good & I'm struggling to cope.
I asked my girls to take a photo of each other for me. . . . .
So i went a searching through they're Facebook & its a amazing just what a mama can find!
These were taken a little while ag while Ez was at camp.
I love these pics

 Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx

March 16

Today my girl is feeling brighter.

When she smiles my heart skips a beat.

Have a wonderful day!

Gab xxx

March 15

Ez is still feeling totally overwhelmed with her school work.
We had a BIG chat yesterday & Ez agreed that exercise would help get rid of some of her tension.
She has started to run & do some cross training too.

I think together we can manage this bump in the road.
Have a wonderful day!
Gab xxx