Thursday 26 April 2012

Melancholy

Today is my boys birthday.
'T' is my third child & today he is 22.
He was born on a friday 11:39pm to be exact. he nearly died in delivery & it was a horrific labour.
I was a divorced mum with two children & found myself pregnant.
It was a roller coaster of a pregnancy & tough going BUT at the end i was Blessed with this exquisite baby boy we all loved him so very much.
'T' was always on the go & i loved his energy & joy for life, lots of people found him hard work but we always looked for the positives. 
I married my awesome hubby when 'T' was 2 & he adored his dad.
When he was about 14 things started to change & nothing we did helped.
Then My Kate died & his downward spiral accelerated, Im not making excuses for his bad behaviour everyone has a choice.



In the end we as his parents had to take a stand, the girls were suffering & we tried every possible avenue to help him but NO-ONE cared, he didn't fall into they're criteria, arseholes!!!!!!!!

We haven't seen our precious boy for 3 years.
I know he is alive & relatively well BUT it breaks my heart that he is where he is.
I hope that somehow he has a good birthday.
I love you my sweet darling boy & i miss the person you were.
Happy Birthday.

Have a wonderful day
Gabs xxx

6 comments:

  1. Praying "T" finds his way home Gabs xxx

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  2. I'm sure I speak on behalf of all mothers when I say that my heart hurt when I read this. I too hope he comes home to you soon x

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    1. Thankyou Jodi.
      Unfortunately that's not possible till at least 2014:(
      It's so difficult I love him with all my heart BUT I don't like the person he has become.
      If only there was a easy solution.

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  3. i am sending love and prayers to wrap you both in.

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  4. In my prayers lovely. I hope time will heal xoxo

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